Two weeks ago when things sped up by more than 6 months we hurried up and got a particular loan in so we'd have the last amounts covered (mostly). This was a 'sure thing' loan that was our last resort but that fell through yesterday and we are so devastated I can't even begin to describe it. We are truly at the point where we know we have absolutely zero human way of pulling this thing off - and that is such a terrifying and humbling spot to be when something so precious is on the line. We spent yesterday in tears, crying out to God begging him to show us what to do to get a miracle moment that would glorify Him. We've tried all along to let everyone know how this was God's thing and how He was the one doing it all, and we've known that the ending would be a huge point-to-God-and-know-that-He-is-awesome moment for sure. I've been reading in Luke recently and yesterday I came to the verse in chapter 9 where Jesus sends out the disciples and says "take nothing for your journey". Ok God I prayed, I get it. Rely on You. Rely on others. We truly, fully and completely realize our powerlessness to make this happen - there isn't even a tiny thought anymore about how we might possibly be able to do this one little thing. It is ALL God and absolutely zero little bit us.
We frantically searched for and called every possible adoption loan place we could. One group disqualified us immediately because we aren't the 'right kind of Christian'. Okay, whatever. My husband is a pastor...we love Jesus with all of our hearts...we are adopting a precious little child in an orphanage on the other side of the world...are we followers of Christ or not?! To make a long story short we applied for another loan and have a request in at an adoption loan place on an emergency basis. So much for grants and raising the rest. We are now praying that these come through, and even if they do it has to be within the next week or two. Without a huge, God-sized something it won't happen.
Only He can make the process work for us now. Only He can work in the hearts of His people to help us and this little one. If God has laid this particular little kiddo's adoption on your heart and you would like to contribute, financially or with prayer, we certainly welcome that.
We have felt all along that God called us to this and His hand has been on this adoption. Please pray with us that the funding comes through so He can be glorified. And if not, that He makes His plans known to us - at least the next step - and He is glorified.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. Acknowledge Him in all your ways and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6
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I am so sorry you are having to go through this when you are so close to your little one. I am assuning that you talked to "A Child Wait's Foundation." I will say one of our neighbors went out with a coffe can and asked door to door until she gathered the reamining $5000. She was not giving up. The other thing is to remember that you will recive $13,000 back with your taxes this Spring (check with your accountant). If you can risk it your could charge parts of the process knowing that you will have that cash then. Also you might be able to find people to loan when you explain how much you will get back. You are in our prayers. Feel free to e-mail me at deckerkmjd@yahoo.com if you need support.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear that you've hit a bump in the road. I'm sending my prayers that you find a solution soon and can go get your boy.
ReplyDeleteHolding you up in prayer that God makes His plan clear to you so you can bring your son home.
ReplyDeletejust reading this makes my heart break for you, but also makes me thrilled... cause it's stories like ours... (yours and ours) where there is NO possible way it can happen without God that ministers to hearts and lives the most... Stand firm in the word... and KNOW that, "The One who calls you is faithful, and HE will do it!!!!" 1 Thes. 5:24
ReplyDeleteHe will provide.. he will... he desires to see the very thing her birthed in you come to pass... :) prayers and hugs..
I am praying for you that things work out. We had a similar situation happen when we were adopting. The money came to us literally 3 days before we were supposed to leave. We delayed our departure by a week and miraculously managed to make it to our son. So, I KNOW, that when things seem impossible... they can still happen.
ReplyDeleteoh! I will pray for you guys too! stupid money... what a pain! we also understand, and are now trying to bring 2 home at once... oh boy! but seriously... when God calls... what are you going to do, but say Yes!!! God will send the $$ for you! A child's heart is at stake here!
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